Monday Blues

                                           

Monday was the worst day for every working people and I am not an exemption to that any more since the day when I've decided to go back working. Except of course if we are going to take it positively. Monday was the beginning of everything in a day it is the day of the week between Sunday and Tuesday. It is the first day of the work week. But do you know that according to the Islamic and Hebrew calendar Sunday is the first day of the week. The name Monday derived from an English Monandaea and middle English Monenday which means "mood day". Blue Monday is name given to a date stated as part of a publicity campaign by Sky Travel to be the most depressing day of the year, and yes it was after the weekends wherein you enjoy every hour of the day. But as what I have said you can take it positively if you want or put yourself in a deep depression (hehehe). For me here are some of the list that I should be thankful for so I don't have to be depress.

I am thankful for this nice weather.

Just this morning as I've read the news paper about the killer tornadoes in  some part of the United States (thinking about my family there hope they are all okey). Thirty-eight (38) or maybe more were killed and hundreds were hurt so sad to hear that news. That is why I need to be thankful living in a country that is disaster free I think.

I am thankful for clean clothes.

I got all my laundry done this weekend...Okay, that is partially a lie hehehe. Though I got most of my laundry done this weekend. But all stuff that really matters is clean. The house floor can say thank you for now they can breathe and no ants to bite them hehe. Actually that pile of cloths are getting big so this was no small feat for a working mother like me and without any household help a big clap for me yehey (just a part of motivation).  

 I am thankful for I was able to put decent food on our table before leaving the house this morning.

I am thankful for I have a job to get busy each day. 

Actually the real things I am grateful for today are in a way really the reflection of the weekends that I had. Thinking back to how I spent the weekend, this morning really made me realize how much I have to be grateful for. I may not be rich in so many ways but actually what matters most is as long as you earn enough to put food on the table, have a decent place to live, a family you can call your own and a friends whom you can spent a happy and fruitful weekends.

TATAY

Daddy, Dad, Daddy Yo, Pop, Papa, Ama, Abba, Erpats, those were some of the lists a father often called. Me, I simply call him TATAY, He was not the sweetest father of all time or I may say he is not sweet at all. Actually I cannot even remember he hug me all my life or kiss me on my birthday or special occasions. He spanks me when I did something wrong. He never tells stories about fairy tales and the knights with shining armor. Sometimes when life was tough then, I remember I even feel how distant he was to us his children. 

Growing up I feel the pain that he planted in my heart. I hated all the things about him that I've wanted, but he never had and never did. I created my small world feeling sorry for myself and thinking that I deserve a better father than him. College came and the relationships between us never change, but I think I mature a little bit because of failed relationship and heartbroken I’m beginning to understand the difference between opposite human being, I’m beginning to learn that you cannot ask other people to love you the way you wanted to be loved. Right after college, He and Mom decided to go overseas with my siblings maybe he wanted to fulfill some of his dreams and aspirations to his family and  I was left out all alone. I hated him a lot more because I blame him for not teaching me how to live on my own, why he didn’t tell me that time comes and I needed to learn the hard way.  

I live on my own because I did not have a choice. Trials after trials came, some people took advantage of me, but I have learned. Other’s judge me not even knowing the real me. But it’s true that when life knocks you down never forget to look up.  Because just like him, my father in heaven never forgets his promises and his love was unconditional. God send so many angels as many as he can along the way, he makes my life in proper direction little by little until one day as I wake up my life was already in proper order because of these angels that he sent. 

Yes my TATAY was not perfect he spank me when I did something wrong because he just wanted me to learn from my mistakes, he never hug me so often but he never fails to put blanket while I am  a-sleep because the wind was so cold, yes he never tells stories about fairy tales and knight in shining armor because he never wanted me to believe in false hope and false romantic relationships. That life is not all a bed of roses. That life isn’t easy, but it’s all up to you how to make it worthwhile and happy. He never tells us that he loves us but those simple act of kindness like he never leave us when life was tough and not perfect between him and mom, yes he was distant because he was just trying to hide his emotions because he doesn't want us to feel the burden that life brings. 

Now that I have a family and children on my own I am beginning to appreciate him and misses all the things he did in action, for now I know that action is better than words because he never fails to show that he loves us not in words but in action because he's a true blooded male species, Man of few words. I love you Tay, Pagaling ka, I miss you and Hope to see you soon. Magkukwentuhan pa tayo at maririnig kopa ang wala kamatayan mong sagot na sa tuwing tatanungin kita via phone kung kumusta kana simpling sagot pero makabuluhan “heto buhay pa” na ibig sabihin salamat sa bawat araw na nagdaraan at darating dahil may pagkakataon pa tayong ayusin anumang kamalian at gusot mayroon ang buhay natin. Tatawa ka pa sa mga jokes ng mga apo mo. Pipintasan mo pa si nanay sa mga walang katapusang drama nya sa buhay hehehe. Ingat ka at maaring di ko madalas sabihin ito sa’yo pero SALAMAT sa lahat at huwag kang mag alala dahil nagiisa ka lang sa buhay ko.

Time Each Day

"A human body can bear only 45 del (unit) of pain. But at the time of giving birth, a mother feels up to 57 del(unit) of pain.This is similar to 20 bones getting fractured, all at the same time! This is just to tell you the extent to which a mother loves her child! 'Love your Mom till the end of your life. The lady with whom you fight almost every day suffered so much pain just to give you a beautiful life!"

       The above  statement was circulated on Facebook nowadays. Tears began to fall and I remember how my mother raised us all with her hardship and sacrifices. I know I am not a perfect child while growing up because I also have my own share of tantrums which  I guess just  normal for every child, but neither did I gave my Mother a bunch full of heartache to endure. But whether I was a good daughter or not,  now that I am a mother in my own rights,  now I know that  being a mother was the hardest profession a woman can ever have. I am not sour grapes or acting as if I have a scornful of denial because I am an unemployed stay-at-home mother as of this time. 

     It's been two years now since I've decided to give up my everyday working routine, career for others, jobs for all and bread and butter for those who wants to make an end meets end. Well actually in my last employment I can say that even though I work hard and stayed in the organization for more than ten years and tried to finish my Masters Degree it seems that it was not enough. I never felt any fulfilment that I am looking for in my life while I was there (well part of  human nature no satisfaction at all). It's not that there's something wrong with the organization that I am associated with but sometimes we as human as we grow old it is true that the more we know the more that we become  hungry for knowledge,  the more that we become eager to explore. 

      So when I've decided to leave everything behind and go beyond my comfort zone, (I was more of an adventurous type  I guess). I've just  wanted to know more, to explore more together with my children I want to give them a better environment, better chance to examine every possibility the world can offer because I never had that in my childhood. But God has his own time even though the time is right  or not I believed that everything will be given in his time, not mine, same as those disappointments turn out to be a blessing afterwards. I know because I experience them first hand all the wrong choices that brings me to the right place and person. And even those people who don't like me and disagree with me can testify how my life twist and turn and came out to be a better one. 

       How many times did I cry even all my fingers on both hand and feet were not enough to count it all  but at the end of the day smiles always came out in my face because something good had happened.  I am writing this because in my past years of not working I am a bit disappointed with the outcome of my decision. It's not that I regret everything. I am very much thankful because I have a very supportive husband who would do everything for the sake of his family. Disappointed in a way that how things went by with my children and how people sees a mother who stayed at home. It seems that they  look down on our capabilities. Before I decided to quit working, my main reason was to home school them, to give them all the knowledge, good values and proper upbringing. Though my expectation at that time was quite high because I never experience home school all my life and I never knew what homeschool is all about. Just recently that I imagine after two years of being with them I am not the one who teach them a lesson, they are the one who teach me a lesson.

       If I just could tell all the working mothers to stay with their children while their young, well though its a case to case basis but if given a chance just like me don't think twice because me though disappointed but  I never regret every single minute I am with them and if I work in the future I am proud to say that once in my life I felt the fulfillment  I never had in my life, that part of my existence God gave me the responsibility because he believes in my capability to be a good mother and it's a compliment on my part. So if you are a mother and you were given a chance to stay with your kids even for a short while don't think twice leave all those paper works behind and enjoy every moment of being with them, for allow me to quote this 


"The best inheritance a parent can give his children is a few minutes of his time each day." ---O.A.Battista.

A Blissful day for me

What was supposed to be  boring and unexciting day for me became so blissful and meaningful. Life sometimes sucks but it's true that Life is how we know it and how we are going to perceived it. Today was just another ordinary day for a mother like me but it became meaningful when I received  this item >>>>>

Thanks to 

Malaysia Online Boutique

Irenelim Fashion

For happiness one needs security, but joy can spring like a flower even from the cliffs of despair. 

Cool Free Dress @Irenelim Fashion

I was new to online shopping. Actually I've just got interested because one of my friend told me the perks and advantage of online shopping. And upon analyzing I have to accept that this is the trend now a days and I have to make use to it. So to start with I begun surfing the net and Google. So the first thing I search was of course the most basic for women, dresses, fashion and trend, until I came across with this website >>>>>>>

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I had a little smile in my face saying that, I think this is what my friend was saying hehehe. IRENELIM was so far for me one of the best Malaysia online fashion and online boutique that I ever encountered. Though I received e-mail saying that this promo did end already but they are willing to give me free shirt promotion specially for me. Just for me to test their product isn't it awesome.

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Sounds so exciting and I can't wait to received the free shirt if it is good to be true and definitely I will blog it again if I receive the free shirt already hehehehe...Well just to give you a glimpse of what IRENELIM was offering that might give you some interest to visit the site and purchase as well (well it's highly recommended to all my friends hehehe). I simply admired some of their collection  they are dresses form various occasion. There is for casual, different blouse in different occasions, pants, skirts, T-shirt and they came from different suppliers all over asia. And the price is absolutely low and affordable. So here are some of their collection that I am planning to purchase if budgets permit hehehe...calling the attention of my better half hehehe...

Price: RM38 (see the price it's totally cheap)

Color: Green, black, grey
- Soft cotton material

- Young and energetic

- Long dress

- You can match with inner or even mini jacket

- Suitable for casual wear

Price: RM68 (I definitely like the design)
Color: Cream (S,M,L,XL) Purple (S,M.L,XXL)
- Silky smooth and comfortable materials
- The few big flowers made by shimmering beads
- Simple round neck yet elegant feeling
-  2 belt loops at waist part

 

Price : RM52

Color Black , Pink

Greet the sun in this charming dress

Materials: 

Cotton-features flowers with small pearls sewed at the bottom

Belt loop at both sides of the waist part

Non adjustable but stretchable spaghetti straps

Light in weight

Price: RM38

Color: Khaki, Orangy Red, Black 

All of the above item can be found on their old website and the below item are all located in their new website, to check details click here >>> MALAYSIA ONLINE BOUTIQUE IRENELIM FASHION, there is also kind of reward to their costumers. Every purchase would be given certain points, which when accumulated it can be use to redeem the items in their site amazing isn't. I think that is what my friend is saying when she told me that she already enjoy online shopping and I am enjoying it too now hehehe.

Smart Sleeveless Buttons Up Jumpsuits

CODE: ndg1687

Small, Medium, Large / O2

Price: RM62.00

In stock:Yes, available

Price in points:4960 points

Reward points:31 points

The Satin Round Collar Dress with Ribbon is essential for the party goer! From the slightly round neckline, a shirred waist wraps around and slims the mid-section and continues to an A line cut on the lower banded skirt. This cut creates a slight bubble appearance and a perfect silhouette. The slightly round front neckline and V-back of this dress can be accented with a variety of glamorous accessories! The included waist sash can be tied into a tasty ribbon. This one is nice.  Click HERE for more details of this product.

                         

So there you go I really enjoyed exploring the site and hopefully you too as well. Lets wait and see the coming of my future free product :) with free delivery then I will tell you soon again how is it, but I believe I will definitely like the product for sure :) So IRENELIM of Malaysia kudos to your Online Boutique.