After 7 years of high and low, Arnold and I felt like newlywed when I first visited him in Malaysia last Christmas. We're like a new couple who madly in love to each other. Arnold came into my life for accidental reason or maybe he is really part of God's plan for me. I never ask for a perfect guy because I don't believe there's any. All I ask for is someone to love and to be loved. My last relationship before Arnold was devastating (wrong choice of guy I think) I got tired and don't want to get involve with anyone again at that time. But then Arnold came and his determination and commitment was something I cannot resist. He knows how to handle situation and he knows what he wants in life. For 7 years with him I never felt any single boredom, insecurities and loneliness in our relationship. We had so many ups and downs. Children came one by one, we venture into business and we failed but that makes us more stronger, we experienced health problem but it only proved how much he cared for me, and his love for me became much more deeper. Sometimes when I look at the skies and no one to talk to, since Arnold went overseas to work for some financial reason I ask God if fairy tales do come true. And if my life will come to an end I want it to be with Arnold's arms. And if I just can write my love story I wanted it to be like Kate Winslet of TITANIC and Allie Hamilton of THE NOTEBOOK. hehehe corny but lovable. look for the site. But for now I must be contented loving Arnold from a far. LOVE YOU dear and will always be.
It's already 2:46 Midnight. Grabe there are times like this that I cannot sleep. I don't know why. I am still dreaming of so many things.
* I dream that I play with Mr. Frosty the snow man since Christmas is fast approaching. ( I always dream of white christmas)
* That I lay down with so much money on my bed so that I can pay all of our debts.
* That I play with my children who are already sleeping. I don't have much quantity time because I am a working mom but I'm trying to give them quality time. (I hope I did before it's too late).
* That I win the brand new car to be draw this coming December 8 in our school.
* That I date PIOLO PASCUAL in replacement of my husband whom I miss so much hehehe.
* That I kiss SAM MILBY in replacement again of my husband hahahaha.
* and lastly that I am making love with my husband under the falls caresing, kissing and hugging each others arms.
I am a big dreamer really. I dream of becoming supermodel, a doctor, to be alice in wonderland, that someday I dream of becoming a billionaire. I dream to be with my husband in an island only the 2 of us, I dream for a grand wedding with Arnold. I also dream that someday when we are old we will love each other more. I also dream to be with my sisters and make my family whole again. Actually since I was 10 years old I never had a complete Christmas and every year from that day on I always wondered how wonderful Christmas will be if only I have a complete family. Then Arnold also left to work abroad, but that was just a dream, this is reality. That I am living one day at the time, that I have a wonderful and loving husband working overseas, that I have 2 boys that love me so much despite of, that my only angel in my life always lead me thru happy and fulfilling life. Life is full of mystery there are times that you hope to finish it all and all of a sudden you're thankful that your still living in this life full of misery. But what ever life brings me problem and misery can never stop me from dreaming until all of my dreams do come true. This blog will be the start of a new life.
