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Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the desert to be tempted by the devil. After fasting forty days and forty nights, he was hungry. The tempter came to him and said, "If you are the Son of God, tell these stones to become bread." Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.'".....Mat 4:1-11

Sometimes life sucks, temptation everywhere, the bad news was all around the television but at the end of the day miracle do happens. GOD showed me again that miracle do happens a few minutes ago. No need to elaborate but sometimes I felt how grateful I am to have a true and loving GOD. I really believed in the saying that "When God is with you who is against you" few days ago I was praying so hard for something that I thought I've really wanted, to have a job even not on my field but at least a decent one. I am not used to this kind life that I have as of the moment. I am thinking that if I can't get out of the situation at least sometimes change the environment I am with. But then God answered my prayer in a different way. Nowadays with the kind of Technology and Communication we have the devil can enter our mind and soul within the four corners of our home. And if we are not aware and properly oriented with our faith everything we had accomplished will be shattered in just a few minutes without thinking of the outcome. All of the years of hard work and pain will be disregarded if we impulsively decide to temp ourselves in just a few minutes of our time on the net, thank God he's always guiding us. After that temptation of the devil happens, which he didn't succeed thank God. Now I've realized my family were the most important reason why I am still here. I have jobs and obligations to cater their needs, and always being at their side was the most proper and decent job that I should appreciate. Because the future of my children and the future of having a happy family depends entirely on my hands and that was my big achievements to be considered in the future...Am I still pray for a decent job? not anymore. All I want to do now was to thank HIM for all the blessings he had given me for the past years of my existence. For giving me a not so perfect but a good provider and a hardworking husband and a loving father to my children.

#1.Mellow Yellow Monday

They say that 1st time was the most adventurous thing that may happened in everyones life. So now here's my first photo for my Mellow Yellow Monday. He's my middle child PJ and her favorite color was yellow what a coincidence Mr Linky.

Bible Reading

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart,

And lean not on your own understanding;

In all your ways acknowledge Him,

And He shall direct your paths.

Do not be wise in your own eyes;

Fear the Lord and depart from evil...."

Proverbs 3:5-7

There were many nights before, that me and my husband did not share the same bed during the night. Specially during our first year of marriage, when we had some misunderstanding and worst arguments. Most the time he will sleep any part of the house except on our bedroom. Those nights was the most hurtful part of my married life and maybe vise versa with my husband I believed. Though come to realized now those were the nights that God made me who I am now. My husband and I didn't have a long courtship, engagement came right away not just like the others, because during that time I believed that I am already on a marrying stage, and entering another chapter in my life was the most simplest thing a women can think of. I never thought that what I am looking for was the total opposite of what every girls dream, marrying someone who's a total stranger was a total wreck (It's not a wrong decision after all) . I want to give up, I've already tried so many times to be separated with my husband at that time because I don't feel the love that I've been looking for. There were no days that I don't keep on praying just to get out of that chaos. But really you would be able to know the reason after everything was done. After so many bad words and wrong decision has been made my husband stick with me he didn't leave me because of my immaturity and careless words, yes there were times that there are bad words too that came into his mouth but those words that I don't want to hear was the most truthful words I've ever heard. Because thru those words these are what I've learned;

1. I've learned to look for the reason instead of an answer;

2. I've learned to come up with reality instead of ideology;

3.I've learned that my life can be changed in a matter of hours by people I even don't know;

4. That it's not what happens to people that's important . It's what they do about it;

5. That learning to forgive needs a lot of practice;

6. That there are people who love you very dearly but just don't know how to show it;

7. That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel;

8. That the people you care most about in your life are taken from you too soon;

9. That just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have;

10. And I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

And the list goes on but these are my top 10 Things I've learned in my 10 years of relationship with my husband. And these are the things I've learned for trusting the lord with all my heart. If I gave up with my relationship without trusting the lord I might not be here with my husband enjoying every minute and every second of the days and nights. Love is not a feeling it was really a decision and thank God I made the best decision ever in my life. How about you are you trying to make a decision to love someone today do it, it might be worth it.

Ash Wednesday

This is the first time that I miss having ashes on my forehead. I remember back then when I was still young we use to joke around with classmates and friends after mass and having this ashes on our forehead. By then I really don't know what Ash Wednesday was all about, until I became serious with my religion and faith. Now I know that Ash Wednesday was the beginning of the season of lent, Lent was a Christian tradition which the main purpose was the preparation of the believer or christian for the easter by means of prayer, penance and alms giving and self denial of bad habit, and the climax of this was the Holy Week. In the Philippines Holy Week was highly celebrated, that sometimes we Filipino forgot the real meaning of lent (though not everyone) there are still others or most of us respect the lent and the holy week. Lent for others are just a mere belief and practice but lent must be celebrated by serious penance, reflection and fasting. Others ask themselves if they need to do all of these maybe yes, maybe no. Yes because man indeed is free to obey or disobey, but once sinned we must ask for pardon, no because we must not ask forgiveness only during lent or holy week, we must make it habit that if we sinned we must ask forgiveness and this is applicable in our relationship and daily living if we wanted it to be peaceful and happy. Reflection on the other hand it is a healthy habit and it was proven that reflection is good for our health the most effective way to reflect was to meditate. According to Rudolf Steiner an Austrian Philosopher and Social thinker " A healthy social life is found only when in the mirror of each soul the whole community finds its reflection, and when in the whole community the virtue of each one is living". Upon reading this quote I remember I will also miss the Philippines election, another well celebrated event in the Philippines this was held during summer right after holy week by then our politician seems to forget the real meaning of lent, easter and holy week because as of this time they are all busy campaigning because of their eagerness to win so help me pray for them and hopefully this coming Philippines Election all of our politician will play the game honestly and peacefully, and for voters let us pray for an honest and clean election.

Blog contest of Color Magazine

This was the last day of submission. And I am rushing all my thought hoping that I can still join the contest (The Color Magazine Blog Contest: Show your Best). I love joining contest actually, but it seems that I am living in the out of this world place. Every time I join contest it was applicable only in the US, CANADA and somewhere else but not here in Malaysia or Philippines. What the heck is the matter with technology isn't it everything can reach out in just a click of a mouse then why is it I am not illegible to join just ask my self why. But I still love joining contest and here I am trying so hard to be fit and I am not going to give up. Because I believe quitters never win, winners never quit. I am not a good writer but I am trying to be, and joining contest like this makes me feel like I do belong specially if you are going to be recognize hopefully. And i believed there's always sunshine after the rain, who knows this will be the winning moment I've been waiting for (Soooooo Confident excuse me for that another trying to be, it might be effective hehehe...)